[00:00.18] I'm afraid of the way that I live my life [00:05.44] I'm afraid of the way I don't [00:10.82] I'm afraid of the things that I wanna do, but I won't [00:19.27] [00:21.62] I'm afraid of God [00:24.38] I'm afraid to believe [00:27.07] I'm afraid of all the loved ones that I've made leave [00:32.34] I'm afraid that my dog doesn't love me, anymore [00:40.61] [00:42.96] I'm afraid of social laziness that let Kitty Genovese die, and [00:53.45] I'm afraid of the mob mentality that makes otherwise normal people go blind [01:04.24] I'm afraid of the way that the world works, and [01:09.40] I'm afraid of the words in my notebooks [01:14.96] I'm afraid that you all know that I am a pervert [01:24.21] But the big red bird that lives under the city [01:30.87] Doesn't give a damn about me, and it dies every night [01:40.33] By burning alive [01:44.97] [01:46.98] I'm afraid of my grandfather's cancer, and [01:52.11] I'm afraid of my mom's dying arm [01:57.54] I'm afraid that I've somehow caused my family harm [02:05.75] [02:08.12] I'm afraid that ones I love won't have enough [02:16.51] [02:18.81] I'm afraid that ones I love won't have enough [02:27.29] [02:30.06] It's harder to be yourself, than it is to be anybody else [02:40.86] I wish I were a little less of a coward [02:49.35] But the big red bird that lives under the city [02:56.01] Doesn't give a damn about me, and it dies every night [03:05.37] So I bought a knife [03:11.02] I am a knife [03:21.82]